hi my name is md.norman yusman,
i love kpop! super junior♥ ,shinee ,2ne1 ,snsd and i'm 19 years old .
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Birthdate : 20/3/1991
School : Management Development of Singapore (MDIS)
Course : Diploma In Business Management
Interest : Singing , Dancing , Gaming & Anything that facinates me Norman Yusman Create your badge LOVES♥ :
super junior!
kim ryeowook & lee donghae ♥ <3
wishes ! :
A trip to korea♥
Gets to be upclose with kim ryeowook, lee donghae & kim taeyeon ♥
Saving up for Super Show 3 In Singapore&Malaysia !
A new DSLR !
A new mic so can make my own song cover ♥
Wednesday, November 03, 2010 ~ Darren Ng Wei Jie Incident , 1 Nov 2010 News. *my condolences to his family and R.I.P dude*
Its been awhile since I last blog that shows I've been leading a happy life partly its true haha. What made me decide to blog was Darren Ng Wei Jia Staring Incident. I read about it after my PBM exams right before i took my afternoon nap cause I didn't get to sleep before the exam. Insomnia much. But nevertheless when I first read it I was shocked. Right after my nap when I woke up I had this heavy feeling about the incident which can't be described. Its true I do not know Darren . But its true that we were born on the year of sheep and having the same age. I could imagine if it was me in his shoe and how my life would immediately be gone. He did not deserve this he had a bright future ahead of him. His parents painstakingly raise him up and nurture him to what he is today all gone in a night.
My mum always say "if any of my son is gone I'll be devastated for all you know I might just be mentally insane." Thats when i start thinking , "So Norman don't think about dying" .
After the news on Monday I've been pondering about it, about my future my life because its precious after all. I had a girlfriend recently and I treasure her. My girlfriend even asked me "why are you so into it?(it refers to the incident)" . In my mind I got no idea. It just hit me that something needs to be done. Even my own brothers was angry about the incident and start thinking that they should serve the SPF. My mum laughed at him but it also hit me that I should join the SPF. I realise I want to do something. Something big, a place that everyone deserve to live in. I won't be surprise after my medical check up I would try applying for SPF.
From this incident I believed everyone have something to learn from it. Treasure yourself, Avoid troubles, Managing your emotions is important and Even motivation. Yes to me its a motivation. A motivation to track down any scum of societies as long I have the physical ability too do so I'll render my service.
This was from the bottom of my heart and after writing this I feel at ease. My condolences to Darren's Family and Friends. I had my share of grievances too. Nobody deserve to die by the hands of others.
This is not DOTA ! You provoke me, I kill you and you respawn. zzz.
Oh another note is a girl blogger named Ann Tan Hui Ping, 19 Yrs old, annrants.blogspot.com, which caught my attention due to her insensitive blog post. It was totally stupid of her to even write such things ! The amount of haters will rise she would just put her own life, family and even her loved ones, boyfriend in huge danger. First her photos are there 2nd her Facebook is there all of her personal information about her can easily be fished out. Although we are of the same age as Darren including me, I was appalled by her childish mentality. She failed to put herself in someone else shoes. Her insensitive thoughts and feelings about hypocrisy was uncalled for. Everyone is hypocrite ! but we have to limit ourselves to a certain extend ! The way she post was totally outrageous it even enraged me that such senseless people existed. I believe we as human do not have the right/authority to pass judgment on others be it death or what we do ! unless we are the law. You can refer to her blog post,
Nevertheless I HOPE she comes to her senses eventhough it may be too late cause her blog hit is on the rise. I'm looking forward for the trial of the 4 suspects. As I'm writing this I realised it its almost 3AM ! my economics examination is tomorrow ! I couldn't study properly for economics cause I'm more of a essay writing type of person >.> . Period I'm already prepared for Supplementary paper because we have a 2nd chance.
Nevertheless I'll end this blog and I really hope Darren's family and friends will get over this hard times and stay strong and to Darren hope you are happy up there and realised all that has happen is nothing but a dream to you. I believe this is fate and part and parcel of life. To the people out there thinking gangs are cool trust me think twice and if you are currently inside one quickly get out and stop your ideas of being cool that way. My brother had his fair share and he already repented and I'm glad he is and I'm looking forward too his release.
In memory of Darren Ng, I'll post the youtube tribute by his own brother.
Today is tuesday ! it feels as if 1 day had passed since super junior left . I'm still having this suju fever in me ! Cant wait for SUPER SHOW 3 ! Cant wait for my own DSLR and be my own Sniper ! Cant wait to save up for Korean trip ! . all for this year . because nxt yr most probably i have to enrol for NATIONAL SERVICE :( . sadded !!
Nevertheless ill enjoy wat is in store for me this year (: . K Pop has really make me more of a happy person now haha ! . no idea why !! . :D
6th of June - SUPER JUNIOR ! SAMSUNG GALAXY S SHOWCASE AT MARINA BAY SAND
Never to be forgotten showcase ! Simply love Kim Ryeowook&Lee Donghae Live !!!! argh .
Love the Cake cutting for Ryeowook Birthday so sweet hehe ! love the heart shape he did for the fans .
Ok lets start from the beginning !
initially i wanted to come at 5pm or so ... but John a fren I just made a very quiet guy i tell u he can sit there without talking for hours and i nearly when insane jus because i didnt talk ! i was hoping he would say something and not sit still for hours !!! . at about 5.30 or so the media came interviewing fans at random... to my horror i heard them saying "lets approach this two guy they seems to be together apart from the fan girls in chinese" .. i was like oh shit ! don approach ... the stoning john suddenly whisper "argh sorry ! " and he ran to the toilet when the media came .. i was like " omg damnedd you john :( " *turn left and right block by fan girls no whr to run* the media said with a grin "since your still here lets do an interview" .. i was like omg T_T ... but i nvr made a fool out of myself heng ! it totally felt like o level oral exam HAHAH only with a camera and 2 more people around ! . I'm proud of myself for taking the interview professionally HAHAHA .
DURING THE SHOWCASE .
STANDARD fangirls scream till their lung was abt to come out ..
the fanboys jus stand there observing !
John was snapping clear shots like a sniper i tell you ... he was so quiet -.- and start shooting piak piak .. like sniper with silencer ! .
I was cursing in my heart when this fat indian girl (no racist pun) just cant take it when she push me forcefully and she was reek with bad body odour.. forcing me to the side and end up behind john ... i was forced to climb from john shoulder like a koala jus to take peek -.- .. seriously you don have to behave like a babarian to the extend of pushing and letting your armpit reek at other face ! .. god . thank god it didnt spoil my mood at that time and manage to take a phew shot .
The whole showcase ended me and john headed home happy (: hoping to go to SNSD concert if they ever came to singapore ! . and Super Show 3 ! heh . thanks to john i already felt like saving up to buy a DSLR ! . i also want to be a "sniper" ok ! :X .
Photos from my Samsung Galaxy S .
Photos From My Fren John (Cai YingChuan) simply love his photos and skill <3
5th of June - Outing with SG/Breeks CWP to bid Shah Gallagher farewell for his National Service .
Initially I reached at 3pm and when to the "titanic" . Siti Sabariah had asked me to but to my horror i didnt see a single soul ! . So i tot everyone came late till 15 min later i received An's msg that they were at the other side of mrt station . :S . After the long waits and such we headed towards somewhr which i dont even noe for KTV ! . had loads of fun heh . i sang abt 2 songs or so . LOL . after that we went for dinner at arab street ! . ok first the food was fine ! but the portions of 4 set having 16 people to share is horrible ! everyone exited the restaurant complaining about hungry stomachs :X nevertheless we headed for shisha session ! :D . my first time to be honest it was fun ! heh smoke coming out from my nose and mouth so fun LOL ! .
after about 1 hour session of shishaing we headed home (: . Thanks Kak ele and her husband for sending me home ^^ .
Heres some photos we took ! Me and Zubaidah failed funny faces :X
Siti Sabariah and Shah lovey dovey !
Gilbert and Kak Ele ! Jason Mraz and Beyonce ! ahaha
Basically the month of june has started on a right note (:
3rd June 2010 -Receival of my Samsung Galaxy S from Singtel <3
so delighted that I went to sleep with a smile ! :D . after uploading the pic to facebook hehehe .
4th of June - Outing with Ex-CCHY Classmate .
Originally the plan was to watch "Killers" at Cineleisure but unfortunately the movie seating had sold out :( . So after pool session we all head towards pastamania to have dinner ! dinner was alright me and hajar bought Hawaiian pizza and cheesestick ! :D . After that everyone plans was to go to Yin Quan house to slack ! but some of us drop out from the idea . me and hajar when to Junction 8 GV to watch "Killers" . One word to describe the movie SUPERBSS <3
tired and exhausted today . not due to work / study or anyting . standard lor .
didnt put my hopes high i was bored and merely played with my pen and paper with that person beside me .. so i wrote my name and a heart shape and the first letter looks almost similar like that person first name but its a diff word . that person saw it which i mention on the prev post ... i covered the word except the heart shape and my name .. and that person immediately guess that person name... so i was like oh... god.. that person was like.. "huh my name ? FK ?!?" in my mind isnt that a lil bit to far sort of hurt my feelings .. so i immediately release the word.. and the person was like ah god u scared me..
i was like in my heart .. oh well i guess that was for an answer i guess..
so there goes my day today .. stupid and totally sad . =/ .
Thursday, April 15, 2010 ~ new beginning once again..
since school started . life was fun and full of meaning . always looking forward to school coz of many eye candy . hoping for one to be a friend of mine .. not succeeding much except one or two cutie .
well these few days i feel quite happy :) . tot i found someone nice the type of person i actually wanted . but i dont dare to put high hopes yet . do not want to feel pain again . i will see how it goes :)
Tuesday, March 23, 2010 ~ accumulated once again..
well i come to realise i only blog when my inner heart is about to be full of agony or such ... and this blog is jus like the recycle bin where i throw my feelings in and read again in future ..
basically my live is jus avg work/home basically almost everyday as if i have no life ! gosh ..
nearing to the starting of school life may seem to be getting better an such .. as usual im envying all the couples out there hais =.= i dun even noe why isit so hard for me .. no matter how hard i try i cant lie to myself but i seem to love you still .. till now ..
though we all seem so normal and happy now i really like this feeling coz i feel treated more like a friend now .. though at times i wish i can go to you and jus express my feelings out .. but i told myself the outcome would be a total knock out :/ .. i dunno but you seem to noe i "might" like you is jus that i denied it time and again .. i don care if you read my blog though i noe you wont .. but ya no matter how you treat me good or bad i still feel that im intoxicated by you .. i feel so stupid of this love and still it feels so forbidden .. but i cant get rid of it ..
love is indeed blind even if your knocked time and again .. i feel so lucky when i get to sit right beside you but at the same time it feels so near yet so far .. i got so many things planned if were tgt but i noe it can nvr be put in place.. soon skool will start your new life will begin i only can look for the worst.. i noe you may find your right person and no time for the rest of us . i noe i will bleed in agony once again if this happen but i will keep it to myself.. for else i love you way to much to even cause hurt to you except myself .. i don mind even if your willing to hurl abuses at me im more than willing to keep quiet for everyting .. coz this is the only thing i will do for the person i really would die for .
may i soon forget you and we remained jus as frens but it seems really hard.. coz i do not want to complicate things any further .. 3 yrs since i first lay eyes on you .. 2 yrs since we became fren .. 1 yr since we became enemy .. and now frens again .. despite this long period of time i only noe my heart is staying strong towards you .. my words may jus be spiking your feeling but it hurt me more to say it.. coz if not it be to obvious hais .
grab the star and let it slip through my finger like the wind .. may you break my heart once again or giv me a chance to be with you even for awhile . is the only way for me to break this painful chain .
16 ~ 17 ~ 18 now 19 .. my heart is only filled by you .
Saturday, January 30, 2010 ~ new year new beginning ? ya right .
well been so many days since i last blog i GUESS . which is true =.= . and ya i tend to blog only unhappy stuff i dunno y ?
today is the 30th day of the new year . 2010 doesnt seem to be much good . no happiness . only pain confusion once again .
let me start from my o lvl result . i got a 26 point and my jae jus posted me to ITE Bishan . i was shocked and had sleepless night . i tried to appeal but they told me im not eligible coz i did not meet the entry requirement . which is bullshit when school tend to emphasise on CUT OF POINT ! . oh well that aside .. i rlly want to get into a poly . seeing all my frens able to enter poly put me in such envy . why did MOE haf to giv me some hope by putting in my JAE that im eligible to apply for POLY courses ? and jus to crush my hope by sending me to a ITE ? if in the first place they had not given me this much hope i wouldnt be in this disappointment .. dis two days seems like a dread to me . i may appear strong and stuff but deep down in my heart its bleeding . again .
in my mind at first i rlly nid to secure a diploma i do not want to spend another year ! since i've retained during sec 3 :( . so i tot of going for private diploma a t MDIS . i tot im going to happy since my family is going to support me in this . but theres other thing im not able to fulfil my dream by joining a dance CCA . or even get a partner perhaps ? well throughout my 19 yrs in life i don even noe how does being in a relationship feels like . its always me and myself its always so one sided . so i feel like such a ...
that aside if i go to private diploma i will be spending 1 yr obtaining it then 2 yrs in NS and after that i have to start working life . i fear my future will be bleak ? like theres no aim of some sort ? i dun noe . i just cant believe im already an adult now .
people wont understand that how envy i get when i see ppl in poly .. at work i see couples eating tgt so loving and sweet .. my eyes dont tear but my heart does . no matter how hard i try i noe theres always nth in store for me . i tried believing in fate and god . but yeah so far it doesnt get bttr but worst . today i felt so heavy and sad at work . i put on a strong front .. but poor faishal keep getting shouted by me .. coz he joked with me but i took it as an indirect insult but its so automatic of me to jus scold all the words out even vulgalarities .. i assume my colleagues think im a babarian of some sort .. then jus now we watched movie theres my colleague whom is afraid to go home alone so i told her i will sent her by cab since its otw to my house . as a friendly offer .. and she asked me "are you for real?" .. den i say " do you think im joking ? dont i look serious enough .. " then she say " ya u tend to joke alot :/ " .. den im like ok perhaps im a douche bag of some sort which i dont even realise .. i keep getting remarks like " are you the real norman why are you so nice today " .. i keep wondering have i been bad all this while ?? or did i just hurt ppl with my words or gesture .. but nobody will understand this heart of mine .
i feel like im walking ard with a mask all this while .. i feel so tired . when i keep quiet and start myob .. ppl will start to ask "norman why r u so quiet? r u ok?" when i start to talk ppl will go "norman shh norman w/e norman ..." so what in the world im suppose to do ?! .
i dunnno rlly . i cant seem to make much decision . now i really wish something good is really in store for me . coz basically im really tired of this life games .
love .. nvr works out for me . friends .. nvr seem to try to understand my plight . family .. seems to be complacent . i dun even noe whr i belong ... even after i write all this my heart is still feeling heavy .. im just praying if theres rlly nth in store for me just take me away from this misery . coz i really feel like such a loser in my own world . even i try to believe in my strength its always crushes ..
i will always giv my full support to everyone . i will always try to see happiness in everyone . i mention that i dont mind . actually i mind . i may say i don care but i care . even if im suppose to be in alot of pain i don mind as long as ppl stay happy . becoz if ppl are sad it will double my pain . i guess thats jus wat is going on .
i guess . bahs . its jus all a wishful thinking (: . nvm bahs . i expected all this . i dunno . its painful feeling . and rlly tiring zzz . nvm . nobody will care anyway =.= .. just me and myself once again . i dun even noe why i bother helping people . why i bother wanting to see ppl smile . but just see myself in pain and sadness . hais . and lastly why am i so soft hearted ? .. i rlly nid some answer .. at work people bully this girl . i noe shes beyond irritating like one kind . but at times we are all human being . we have feelings why must we treat each other this way ? . i don care wat people do to me . but please treat the rest like how you want people to treat you . hais .
i get a scolding from my senior for helping her doing part of her job . her job is a runner and i do runner alot of time and its super tough . especially during busy period . why are you all so selfish ? . you all are the senior and you don have to do this underdog job whr the juniors have to do . watever i do right or wrong also get a scolding i nvr retaliate . i cant be bothered really . but i love my job no matter what . hais .
i dont noe .. people tell me be hard hearted and stuff and i really cant . no matter hw i hate a person i cant really potray my hatred . its all squish into a tiny ball and poof .
i give up sometime .. today at work get scolding yest also . hais i dunno wat i do .. to slow wrong to fast wrong .. either way also wrong .. i work to actually stop feeling lonely at home and start emoing bla bla . but work jus deepen my pain . only at times it can be nice seeing this particular person smile but yeah im nt putting my hope to high hais . well i rlly hope someting good would be in store for me . really . every night i think and wonder . wats wrong with me dats repelling people arnd me :/ . people break promises with me .. only to find out they have their own agenda and im left out .. i lent people my listening ear . but i cant find one that can lent me theirs . i dun noe .. maybe its just meant to be ba ..
